Why, oh why?

Dear Aidan,

I'm so upset today. One of our friends is going through such a hard time. She is pregnant with her first baby and she's about 6 months along, but she has to terminate her baby. Her baby has a lot of problems and the doctors have told her that it would probably be best for her to terminate the baby. She has to make that decision before she is 24 weeks (which is next week), but she told me today that she is going to go through with the termination. I can't imagine how she is feeling right now. When she was explaining everything to me today I couldn't stop crying. We were both in tears because we were so sad that we couldn't do anything for her baby. We felt so helpless. Next week she is going in the hospital to do the procedure, but she was telling me that basically she has to go through labour and deliver the baby. I didn't know she had to do that. I mean, it's hard enough that you have to terminate the baby, but to actually deliver the baby and then arrange it's funeral???? It's not fair! All these things are running through my mind right now. How could such a joyous moment turn into such a nightmare.

Before I left her I asked her if it was ok if I touch her stomach. I wanted to say goodbye to the baby. I'm just so sad. I'm going to hold onto you a little more tightly tomorrow.

Above is a picture of you in mommy's stomach at 5 months. This would be around the same time that my friend is in in her pregnancy...