Work/life balance

Dear Aidan,

I don't know how other moms do it. I feel extremely guilty every time I come home late from work. At work I am entering into one of the busiest times so I'm anticipating lots of late nights at the office. Today I came home well after 8:00pm. You were already tired so I had to quickly eat dinner and play with you before I put you to bed. You were extremely needy and kept wanting to be near me when I came home. It must be so hard on you too because you went from being with mommy 24 hours a day to now a couple of hours a day. I'm sooooooo sorry. I kept repeating that to you while I was playing with you.

My friend, Jenn, just had her baby and when I saw a picture of her son I was in utter awe. I couldn't believe that just a year ago that was me in her situation. I can't believe how much you've grown and how much you will grow from now. I want to be there to experience everything. Daddy told me today that he had to fill out a injury report from daycare. Apparently you fell down today and you hurt your right eye. I guess every time a baby gets hurt they have to fill out a report. I can't believe that I wasn't there to soothe you when you got hurt. It just kills me inside! I bet you were crying out for me too. Ugh. I feel so horrible...