I lied

Dear Aidan,

Remember when I said you were good yesterday? Well, I lied. You woke up so many times last night and basically long story short mommy got zero sleep. Daddy also yelled at mommy in the middle of the night while I was soothing you because I think he thought what I was doing wasn't working. He denies saying that, but I was really angry with him. For someone to criticize when they aren't helping is just a J-E-R-K! It's really not fair being a mom because it's always a lose lose situation. Well for me that is. Daddy always give me guilt trips saying stuff like, 'How can you leave us?' or 'We're a team!' I do EVERYTHING for you. On nights where daddy puts you to sleep (which is like never) I change your diaper, feed you, put your sleep sack on, turn on the humidifier, turn on your baby monitor, and turn on your sleep music. All daddy has to do is put you to sleep. On nights when I put you to sleep I do all of the things above. Even when we go somewhere daddy can help me a bit by dressing you and feeding you so that I can do other stuff- like pack your diaper bag, but nothing. Well, that's not completely true because he started helping a little, but it's only when I tell him to do something. I got so fed up today that I told daddy that I wasn't helping him. Surprise surprise he gave me the 'We're a team!' crap. It's not that I don't love you and care about you it's just that I'm sick and tired of doing everything. It would be nice to hear words of encouragement now and then, but I get NOTHING! ARGH. So annoyed.

I took you to the doctors again today. This time I wanted to make sure you got your 1 year shots because last week the doctor wouldn't give it to you because you had a cold. Well, you are still sick, but I didn't want to come again next week. I had to wait an hour to actually see him. That was hard. Well, you are now 9.1 kg (20.06 lbs), 79 cm in length, and 46 cm in head circumference. According to your doctor you are average.