It started off well...

Dear Aidan,

The day started off well, but it turned into a nightmare as the day wore on. Daddy was away all day today because he had a soccer tournament so it was just me and you. I had a lot of stuff to do- clean up the house and do some work (it's one of the busiest times at work right now). However, I wanted to make sure I spent time with you today since I hadn't seen much of you this past week. In the morning I played a lot with you and even took lots of photos of you in your hanbok. Your Vancouver grandmother always asks me to send her pictures of you and she had requested me to take photos of you in your hanbok one last time before you grew out of it. I thought it was the perfect time to take these photos. You were in such a good mood and I was able to get some great shots. Then you took a nap from 10:00am to 1:00pm. I was able to do a few things while you were sleeping- laundry, eat, read a magazine, and do some work. I was thinking it was going to be a great day because you got a long nap and it seemed that way when you woke up. You were well-rested and happy. Then I fed you and played with you again in your playroom. We played for 2 hours, but I noticed you were getting very tired. I didn't think that you would take another long nap, but I tried to put you to sleep anyways. I brought you downstairs and made sure the TV was off. I put you down in your playpen (so that I could do some work on my laptop in the breakfast area), but you started crying right away. I noticed lately that you hate being put down. I tried patting you and everything, but you just wanted out. I know that at daycare they just leave you in the crib while you are still awake and you are able to fall asleep on your own so I thought that if I went away you would do just that. Boy, was I wrong! You cried so much that I went crazy. I don't want you to keep being babied by me so I let you cry. It just got worse. I couldn't deal with it anymore so I yelled at you and I spanked you a few times. You cried even more! Eventually I had to take you out and hold you. You stopped crying right away, but you were so drained of energy that you were just a limp baby. I felt so bad! I guess all that crying made you exhausted, but still you weren't sleeping. I was beyond frustrated at this point because I had so much work to do, but I didn't even get to do anything! Plus, I was annoyed that daddy wasn't home to help me. I'm just so tired and exhausted!